About Me

Hello Everyone,


I never thought I would start a blog page but I did =) The truth of the Gospel of Jesus Christ hit me in 2007 and my life has never been the same. When introducing the Gospel, people tend to talk a lot about blessings and we rarely hear about the pain that many endure on a daily basis. We are living in the last days and there are many suffering for their faith. 


I grew up as a Roman Catholic. I was baptized as a baby, had my first communion and Confirmation but never regarded Christ as Lord. I deceived myself into thinking I was a Christian when in reality I didn't live to do the will of my Father in heaven. I lived to accomplish my own will. In the Catholic faith purity is stressed so I, like many others did about everything else but have sexual intercourse and walked proudly boasting that I was still a virgin. I was prideful, suicidal and filled with hatred towards humanity. 


One more thing you might want to know about me is that I was born in Haiti in 1989. Growing up there, I was exposed to a lot of sexual perversions, violence and demonic activities. I enjoyed my childhood in that I had fun but my life was designed very carefully by my parents in a way to protect me from harm. The people I associated with were on the same social class as I. They were either related to me or the children of my parents's friends. I never really had the opportunity to make any decision on my own. My parents kept me occupied with dance lessons, school, Cheerleading, modeling, piano lessons and more so that I would not be exposed to much. 


Growing up, my parents used a lot of fear to force me into "willingly" doing their will. Every time I made a decision on my own, they would plant fears in me, tell me it's not good enough or give me the silent treatment. From Childhood, my family members were my Gods, I loved them, wanted to please them, I didn't know how much this idolatry would later be the very thing that's killing me. They were in control of everything, they were the filter of my life without their approval nothing can be done. I was never allowed to have a sleepover and never was I allowed to sleep over any one else's house. There were many rules to follow and I did everything in my power to keep them.


In 2007 someone shared the Gospel with me and after months of dissecting the word with me, I understood the truth of the Gospel was broken and begged the Lord to forgive me of my sins, redeem me and take me under His wing. For those of you who have experienced the transforming power of the gospel, I changed in the way I responded to things, my desires were different and that made things at home worse. My father begin to plant fear in me by calling me many vile names and threatening to harm me by taking my life. My mother was also angry with me for she is the most devout Catholic in the house and my brother utterly frustrated because his little sister wasn't "his" anymore. I also lost touch with many of my friends due to my new found faith and all. This was very hard for me since I spent my life living to please them, it hurt to know that they were displeased with me but I had to put Christ first. 


By 2008 Things were getting so out of control at home that I ended up running away. I had to hide to read my bible, eat in secret because I did not want my father to see me because if he did, he would either get violent or start scaring me with his words or looks. While being away, I met another believer, I was thankful to the Lord. I thought that I would get to go to church, meet other "real Christians" and learn more about Christ but ended up getting raped and my heart condemns me until this day because the reason this happened to me was partially my fault. I knew it was wrong yet my flesh didn't care anymore. I felt like it was done, I was now trash, wasted goods and that my future husband would never want me. Although I knew it was wrong, I dived into sexual sin and continued to partake in that which I knew was wrong.  The realization that it was after knowing Christ that I partook in such a thing choked me. I lived in condemnation and my condemnation sometimes led to more sin because I felt like nothing else mattered, I had already messed up.


After about 2 months, while in prayer, I asked the Lord to show me/tell me His will for me. I wondered if He still loved me, wanted to lead me and I came across 1 Thessalonians 4:3  "For this is the will of God, your sanctification: that you should abstain from sexual immorality" I was shocked that this verse even existed in the bible. I knew the Lord wanted me to move out of where I was and go back home. Overwhelmed at the reality of His presence I left and fearfully went back home to my parents. The house was calm for a couple of days but eventually they saw that I still had not returned to the Catholic faith and the war started all over again. I am still here after 3 years enduring and holding on. My brother tired of my father's harsh ways moved out and now it is just my father, mother and I. 


Looking in one may wonder, where is God? Why isn't He protecting you or helping you? Although His hand may be hard to see, He is here. I'm still learning His word and sharing all that I've learned with others via Youtube, Facebook and more. The Lord is continuing to comfort me and give me strength to endure. I've also entered a new season and I cannot wait to update all of you on the big news!!! Since this is my first blog, I wanted to share a bit of my testimony  with you all so you know a little about my background and what the Lord has done for me. Continue to put your trust in the Lord.


God Bless!