Baby Number 3

It's true we are expecting again! This time another Girl. We're Due October 18th. It's been really difficult to continue blogging since that requires for me to sit down, gather my thoughts and write. Tyrell and I have been Vlogging on Youtube though. It's a little easier to do that.

We've also moved recently. We now live in a beautiful house in a quiet neighborhood. We live in a small town near the Potomac River. Our kids love it here and so do we. The Lord has been so gracious and we are extremely grateful for His provision.

I can't imagine myself writing as much as I use to since being a mother and homemaker takes up a lot of my time but I do faithfully VLOG so do check out and subscribe to our Youtube Channel to stay up to date. Here is how we told the children we were expecting ^_^

November 6, 2012

3 Months! ^_^

Labor And Delivery

Our baby is here!!!

Azariah Aidenn Samuels

6lbs 8oz, July 30th, 2012 at 5:05am

What an experience!!! My husband and I spent July 29th driving a truck and moving our things from my mother in law's house to our new place. We watched a movie and later the contractions began. One moment I was sitting down singing to Hillsong's This Is Our God CD and the next I was screaming my husband's name to come quickly because it hurts so much! Before I knew it, the ambulance was here and I was being rushed to the hospital.

I'm at the Hospital, anxious but trying to remain calm. They took me to a room to answer some questions and in the process of answering I threw up all over the floor. The nurse was pretty upset. Later the doctor came in and we found out that I was 5 centimeters dilated but baby was not making his way down.

As some of you know, I have the Arnold Chiari Malformationan. DBecause of this rare abnormality, I had to be closely monitered while pregnant. They didn't know what to do. They didn't know if they should allow me to push, fearing that pushing would add pressure to my brain.

I wanted to have what seemed like the typical "Christian woman labor" A water birth with people praying and pushing for the joy that is set before me enduring the pain like Christ that I may obtain the prize but now we were told that we needed to have a C-section and that I needed to be put to sleep because they could not give me an epidural due to the abnormality in my brain. We were devistated. We didn't know what to do. We had prayed that the Lord would give the doctor wisdom and this was what he thought was best. We prayed then submitted to the doctors orders.

I woke up to the sound of my little boy crying. I'm still recovering and have to constantly confess my envy to the Lord, seeing that I not only idolized other christian women and was envious that I could not take part in their wonderful experience. After the procedure my husband and I were told that we needed to wait at least 18 months to have our next child.

We know that it's the Lord who opens and closes the womb. We don't believe in taking birth control so we are forced down to our knees again, seeking direction from the Lord.

Proverbs 19:21

Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the LORD's purpose that prevails.

I'm not sure why the Lord allowed things to happen as they did but I know that He is Sovereign over every detail and that nothing takes Him by surprise.

In this life, I continually seek after ease, comfort, a "good" life and yet He comes in and chooses to glorify Himself through my sufferings revealing to me the evilness in my heart.

Praise the Lord for continually shaking my plans and allowing suffering that I may treasure Him above this life, my health and every vain thing under the sun.

A Wonderful Surprise

We just received an awesome surprise in the mail!!! We are so thankful to the Lord for all the precious gifts we're receiving for our little boy ^_^ Praise the Lord.

Along with the gifts, this person included some words of encouragement and bible verses

Under neat the Breastflow BPA Free Starter Set
It says "Your blog has been a true blessing to me. Here is a verse I really like and trust you will too. It is revelation 22:17. Meditate on it."

Underneath the Microwave Steam Sterilizer, it says: "Sanctify them in the truth, your word is truth. John 17:17. May GOD bless and keep you."

Praise the Lord. I had for hold back tears. This gift was so thoughtful and unexpected. May the Lord bless you tremendously in England for your act of kindness! We are so thankful!

Surprise Baby Shower!

I am beyond thankful! The idea of having a baby shower when Ty and I live in a small little room in a basement that can't even hold all our things was an impossibility. I threw that idea out the window and just continued to pray that the Lord would bless us with the things we need for baby's arrival. Without a shower, the Lord had already provided bags of clothes for baby's first year, along with a brand new crib, walker and other important items. 

God not only answered my prayers but made the impossible possible. I had a baby shower!!! There was so much food and the decorations were beautiful! Not to mention people I've been wanting to see for months! What a mighty God we serve! We were also showered with love and more gifts for baby and we are eagerly waiting his arrival. We are so thankful for our brothers and sisters who labored. 

In my husband's Words:

"I'm so thankful to the Lord that I can experience church, and even watch God take care of His children through the church. Where my wife and I have lost a mother we have gained mothers in the church, where my wife and I have lost brothers, we have gained brothers in the church, where we have lost fathers, we have gained fathers in the church, uncles, aunts, sisters. What we have lost in pursuing Christ with total abandon we have gained 10fold. Our Heavenly Father has provided for His children, and He continues to provide. And still, never have I seen the righteous forsaken...or his children begging for bread. May the Lord use us in the same way for others."

Moments Of Anxiety

Yesterday, I found myself sitting in my room, fretting and worrying about Tyrell and I's future. I spent most of the day going from being anxious to praying to being anxious to praying again.

My worries?

We don't have a place prepared for baby when he comes out. We don't have enough money to get our own place. This week is my last week working. Will Tyrell be able to make enough on his own so we can move to a basement, studio anywhere that's big enough for the three of us? What if my water breaks? Where will baby sleep? How would we survive?

As I examined everything and thought about our current circumstances, I got more and more anxious and then I was distracted by our son kicking about in my womb. He was happily twirling around, kicking and enjoying another day that the Lord had given him while I sat in my room fretting about our future.

Can you imagine him saying: "it's dark in here, tight and small. Will my mom be able to push me out? What if she can't? What am I going to do? Am I going to be stuck in here forever? I might die! Lord help me! I have to get out of here!"The thought of him fretting made me chuckle a bit but that was exactly what I was doing.
Why be worried about the future?

Though hard times are upon us, we must continue to put our trust in the Lord. I must follow the example of our little man and be still. Worship God now, be thankful now and continue to pray and wait on the Lord. My fretting will get me no where. When it's time for us to move, the Lord will accomplish His will. I have no control over what will take place in the future so I must not worry but put my trust in a Sovereign God who knows what we need.

I must put my hope not in riches but in the only one who does have control and can save, Jesus Christ.

Journey With Us: Update

Journey With Us: Update: <--- CLICK HERE!
After many long hours we officially finished our baby registry! Praise the Lord ^_^

Big Change!

So if you guys haven't heard the news yet, Tyrell and I are expecting a baby boy!!! I'm truly amazed at God's grace and I still have a hard time believing that this is really happening. Though this is such an amazing blessing, I'm also bumping against some challenges. From morning sickness, tiredness and the lack of energy to discouragement, feeling overwhelmed and misunderstood. I just don't have the same energy that I use to have anymore. I'm always tired and the idea of going to work weekly is weighing me down more than ever. I'm also finding it very hard to manage the home and work outside of the home at the same time. I wish I could devote the little energy I have to our home. It took a while but I am really ready to stay at home and exercise my role as a woman. I just cannot do both and I'm thankful for a husband who wants me to stay home. Just 3 more months to go and I can't wait. So far, I've gained over 10 pounds and most of my clothes don't fit but on the positive side I'm feeling my little boy kick already! That's truly a blessing during these trying times. So many changes going on right now but I must remain in prayer. A wonderful journey awaits. May God's Will Be Done!