Almost 3 years!

I am looking forward to celebrating 3 years of marriage to my best friend. The Lord has been so gracious and faithful. I've learned so much about God's Character through our trials and I wouldn't have things any other way. I am in awe watching my husband go off to work daily and provide for our family. Seeing how God sustains him and gives him strength to head out daily and glorify him at work. Some of you may or may not know what the Lord saved my husband from but no one could have predicted his future. He wasn't suppose to be here, he should still be in a hospital somewhere drugged and away from society. But he is here! Redeemed and in his right mind! Leading our family, providing, praying for us and teaching us about this Great God that makes it possible for him to breathe daily. Glory to God!!! We have seen him at his lowest, body shutting down from a panic attack and yet reciting bible verses and worshiping God regardless. What a man! What a God! What an honor it has been to follow my husband as he depends on our Great God daily. I admire my husband so much. He has been such a gift to me. A real Christian man weak in nature but depending on a strong and mighty God for EVERYTHING and teaching his family to do the same. I pray the Lord blesses us with many children and the means to provide for them. I hope that the Lord enables us to teach our children about our Lord and how holy He is, how wretched we are and the mighty work that was done on the cross. We married young and barely had anything but the Lord has kept us and graciously showered us with His love, children and much more! We serve a mighty God. As we approach 3 years of marriage, I look forward to learning more about our Great God and of course being conformed into the image of Christ. May the Lord use our marriage to show the beautiful picture of Christ and the church. May He be Glorified!

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New Apartment =)

Hello Friends,

As you all know, March 1st was supposed to be our last day in the condo and on February 28th we got a phone call from a complex we were praying about that we were approved for a 2 bedroom duplex in a much better neighborhood. March 1st we spent the day moving out.

By the Grace of God, we were able to schedule a moving company and we are now living in our marvelous 2 bedroom duplex apartment. Thank you all for praying for us and encouraging us.

Our little boy loves his bedroom and sleeps through the night. I (Marie) am 18 weeks pregnant now and we find out baby#2's gender April 3rd! We're extremely excited and so is Aidenn. He is going to be a big brother. Praise God!

I hope you all have a marvelous weekend.

God bless!

Moving Again

In June of 2013 we (the Samuels) moved from our tiny basement apartment in Takoma Park, MD to a spacious 1 bedroom apartment in Temple Hills, MD. It's called LynnHill Condominiums, and we are currently renting the condo from an owner. We knew when we moved into this building that it was pretty dilapidated due to owners not paying their condo fees. We live on the 6th floor and the elevator does not work. This has been a consistent challenge for us. Along with our water being cut off regularly, pest infestations and rampant prostitution and drug use happening on our very floor. We considered our stay a blessing since our rent was very cheap. Now however, God seems to be bringing judgement on the condominiums. The WSSC has ordered our water be cut off on March 1st due to unpaid water account charges from the Condo owners over $100,000. As a consequence the Condos will be considered unfit for human habitation and all owners/tenants will be ordered to vacate immediately. We received this letter on Monday, February 10th. 

We need to move by March 1st and are looking for any leads in the DC metropolitan area (but particularly somewhere close to Alexandria/Arlington, VA since that's where I (Tyrell) work, somewhere like southern PG County for example would be great). By God's grace I make a little extra change and we can probably afford something up to the $1100 mark...though that might be pushing it. $900-$1000 would be ideal. We'd love a two bedroom apt but may have to settle for a one bedroom temporarily. If you know any condo owners who are renting that would be great too since rent usually goes up in typical Apartment complexes. If you don't have any leads, your prayers are greatly appreciated in this time. Currently, we are set to visit three apts on Saturday Feb 15th but I'm not too hopeful for any of them. 

Though this is tragic. We are encouraged by God's sovereignty. Marie is pregnant with our second child and going up and down the steps are becoming increasingly difficult especially with having to carry a one year old. Though our place was renovated and a fairly nice apt, losing hot water and noticing we weren't "alone" anymore (hint hint) in our place we began considering to move. This was dicey though since our lease isn't up til June. Now God is definitely telling us to leave and He is making a way for us to do it. 

We have two weeks to find another place to live. Until our next post help us pray that all goes well with the apartment search and especially the apartment we applied for Feb 16th.

God Bless you all!

Tyrell, Marie, Aidenn and our unborn one :)

Hebrews 12:1-2

Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, We do this by keeping our eyes on Jesus, the champion who initiates and perfects our faith. Because of the joy awaiting him, he endured the cross, disregarding its shame. Now he is seated in the place of honor beside God's throne.

 Confused? Let me explain. At the age of 13 I begged my mother to perm my hair so that I could be like everyone else at school. After that I worshiped self and was consumed me the desire to be loved and accepted in other words worshiped by my peers. I wanted to seduce men with my hair and body and stir in envy in the hearts of women so that they would wish they were like me. I was very proud and took pleasure in vain things that lead straight to hell. Praise God almighty for snatching me from that path and placing me on this hard and narrow road that leads to life for His name's sake. After Salvation, I continued to perm my hair and don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that perming your hair is sinful. Every time I got a perm, there was the temptation to get in that mindset again. I wanted to be noticed, I wondered whether or not others were envious, if other men noticed and were moved just silly stuff. After I met my husband, he encouraged me to go natural not because he knew of my struggle but just because he was curious about what my natural hair texture was. I agreed, thought it would be fun and so did it. The months after that were the MOST HUMBLING MONTHS OF MY LIFE!!! I woke in the morning and I couldn't just pull my hair up or brush my hair and go out. It took a long time every morning to tame my hair and make it some what presentable before heading out. It was torture, I felt so ugly and unkept. I was embarrassed no longer had my head held up and my back straight longing for the attention of others who I would pass by I was instead wishing I was invisible and was shocked everytime a person addressed me publically. During that time I was also learning about modesty and how my clothes shouldn't expose my frame but cover it so I was looking a mess most days. Not knowing what to wear and definitely not knowing what to do with my hair! Later on that year 2011 it was time for Tyrell and I to marry and so after after 6 months of persevering I gave up and got a perm so that I would feel/look "beautiful" on my wedding day. Too bad I took my insecurities down the isle with me. I had the make up on, a nice dress, my permed hair and yet felt ugly. As the ceremony went on I saw Tyrell and was consumed with anxiety as we prepared to kiss for the first time. Thinking about standing at the altar still makes my heart race with panic as I ponder on the reality that we had to do that publically. Anyway, after the wedding I vowed not to get another perm. I continued with God's help and began to embrace this new life our Lord was calling me to. Over time, I learned to focus on serving our Lord and of course submitting to my husband. It was a very hard and long road but I learned alot about what it means to be a woman of a meek and quiet spirit. I also learned that we women can be loud without opening our lips. We can be loud with the way we carry ourselves, the clothes we wear, the way we do our hair, our make up and so much more. After examining myself and repenting, I finally cut all my permed hair on December 11th 2012. I'm really grateful for God's patience and my husband's support through this transition. I'm learning more about modesty and what to wear to look presentable. I'm also learning what true beauty is and what being meek looks and feels like. Yes there were times I broke down but this was so worth it. Throwing off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, so that I could run the race marked out for me. Not sure what you guys may be facing or struggling with but I encourage you to examine your hearts, pray and lay aside every weight that slows you down, especially the sin that so easily trips you up. 

Be Blessed family!

A Crazy Ride

Dropped my laptop on the bare ground in all of my pride last night, but praise the Lord it is still working. In other news Azariah Aideen Samuels is here. Born July 30th in an emergency C Section. Baby is healthy, Marie is fine but in a lot of pain. Please pray for her. I haven't really slept since Sunday...don't think things will change anytime soon. Praying for greater grace :). Wow...I'm a father. Sooo weirrrrddddd!!! The rescue mission begins...May the Lord be merciful to this wretched sinner :)

I'm Amazed at the Lord's ability to take my callousness toward the Church and make me appreciate it beyond measure. He has done this by stripping away members of mines and my wife's real family and allowing the church to take their place. Though this grieves my inner man and requires much wisdom to maneuver through backlash and anger on their part, I am glad that God is sovereign over my sins and ABLE to provide for my wife and I because we are His children. I am also exceedingly amazed that God took this spoiled brat who lived for himself and made him lead, provide for and sacrifice for this lovely lady of mines, and this child. I am not my own nor am I myself these days. Christ literally lives through me. I am simply along for this ride of glory. May God continue to glorify Himself in the shattering of my self. I'm really tired, really stressed, but God is good. In my "apostle Paul" voice, I am the LEAST likely candidate to be a father and husband and those who truly know me can attest to this and give God His due glory.

I must be honest though, since my wife and I started looking at new places to live I've been pretty despondent about life and towards life. In God's sovereignty this has carried over to now and I don't feel much anxiety now that we have moved out of my mom's place and given birth to Aidenn. I thought for sure I would pass out and die when my baby came because it's such a huge change in my life. Everything just feels surreal though, no panic, no anxiety, no psychosis. It's weird though, I don't know how to think of the baby. It's like he's me, but he's not me at all. He came from me, but he is not me. I think it's best described in the analogy of how God created us. We were made in His image, but we are not Him, and He is not us. I want to think that he has the same thoughts as me and the same personality, but he doesn't. He is his own person. When I think like that, I think I begin to think properly though I feel sort of disconnected from him at that point. But I say "properly" because he is not "mines." I am his steward. I am his father but ultimately he belongs to the Lord as do all people who are created by God. Indeed all people are created by God, but not all are His children. Aidenn is my child though, so I will treat him as such and love him as such by the grace God gives me. 

-Tyrell

Labor And Delivery

Our baby is here!!!

Azariah Aidenn Samuels

6lbs 8oz, July 30th, 2012 at 5:05am

What an experience!!! My husband and I spent July 29th driving a truck and moving our things from my mother in law's house to our new place. We watched a movie and later the contractions began. One moment I was sitting down singing to Hillsong's This Is Our God CD and the next I was screaming my husband's name to come quickly because it hurts so much! Before I knew it, the ambulance was here and I was being rushed to the hospital.

I'm at the Hospital, anxious but trying to remain calm. They took me to a room to answer some questions and in the process of answering I threw up all over the floor. The nurse was pretty upset. Later the doctor came in and we found out that I was 5 centimeters dilated but baby was not making his way down.

As some of you know, I have the Arnold Chiari Malformationan. DBecause of this rare abnormality, I had to be closely monitered while pregnant. They didn't know what to do. They didn't know if they should allow me to push, fearing that pushing would add pressure to my brain.

I wanted to have what seemed like the typical "Christian woman labor" A water birth with people praying and pushing for the joy that is set before me enduring the pain like Christ that I may obtain the prize but now we were told that we needed to have a C-section and that I needed to be put to sleep because they could not give me an epidural due to the abnormality in my brain. We were devistated. We didn't know what to do. We had prayed that the Lord would give the doctor wisdom and this was what he thought was best. We prayed then submitted to the doctors orders.

I woke up to the sound of my little boy crying. I'm still recovering and have to constantly confess my envy to the Lord, seeing that I not only idolized other christian women and was envious that I could not take part in their wonderful experience. After the procedure my husband and I were told that we needed to wait at least 18 months to have our next child.

We know that it's the Lord who opens and closes the womb. We don't believe in taking birth control so we are forced down to our knees again, seeking direction from the Lord.

Proverbs 19:21

Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the LORD's purpose that prevails.

I'm not sure why the Lord allowed things to happen as they did but I know that He is Sovereign over every detail and that nothing takes Him by surprise.

In this life, I continually seek after ease, comfort, a "good" life and yet He comes in and chooses to glorify Himself through my sufferings revealing to me the evilness in my heart.

Praise the Lord for continually shaking my plans and allowing suffering that I may treasure Him above this life, my health and every vain thing under the sun.

By Faith & Not By Sight

Wow... Where do I begin... It's been a long time since I blogged, overwhelmed by our circumstances, it's been hard to find the strength to sit, meditate and write.

My husband and I have been "homeless" since June 17. We didn't see it coming and weren't prepared for it but God knew and He had us covered. We had to speak up in obedience to our Lord about some things taking place in the home where we were staying and as a result we were threatened and for my sake and the life of our unborn baby, my husband and I had to leave. We left all our things behind and headed to church that morning not knowing where we would sleep, not having enough funds or a car that we can sleep in until we figure things out.

We've been attending Capital Hill Baptist Church and hadn't been there for long and yet the believers there opened their arms to us and purposed to pray for us and help us in any way that they could. One couple with 4 beautiful children opened their homes to us.

One more thing I forgot to mention is that her and I are both expecting and our due dates are a day apart. She is due August 10th and I am due August 9th. It was perfectly orchestrated by God, there I learned how to cook a few meals and learned what contractions were! lol My stomach was as hard as a melon and it was hurting and I mentioned it to her just to see if she gets "those" and she explained to me that those were contractions lol. The Lord used them to continually remind us to trust Him in the midst of our storm. We daily broke bread together as a family and stayed up late hours talking about the attributes of God.

Can't forget my sister Jamika who gave us her room to sleep in while we stayed there!

Later another couple opened their homes to us.

They were heading out of town and so they left their house key with us along with the key to both of their cars and encouraged us to eat whatever is there and make ourselves at home as we sought the Lord on what to do.

Later Another young couple offered to drive all the way to Waldorf to pick up our baby's crib since the cars we had weren't big enough to pick them up. That same day, they fed us and drove the crib all the way to Takoma Park! The house where we would be staying.

As if that wasn't enough the Lord also used the mother of one of my students. She lives in the neighborhood Tyrell and I had hoped we would live one day. We took a stroll there the day before our wedding and just admired the beauty of that place. She offered us her basement! for a price we CAN afford in a neighborhood we CANNOT afford to live in. She along with a carpenter named Steve labored and fully renovated the basement! They painted, did stencil work, bought us a brand new fridge along with other things and fully furnished it!!! 

This is so amazing and I know that this could not have happened apart from the Lord moving. What a journey it has been!!! We've only been married 8 months and our Lord has been so faithful to teach us about His character. He has blessed us with the circumstances we've found ourselves in so that we could see Him in action.

There were nights of worry, tears, I saw no way out. I knew only the Lord could help us but spent hours doubting that He would pay us any mind. "why should He help us?" were my thoughts. Our Lord is faithful and He is Sovereign. I hope He continues to remind us of this truth as Tyrell and I continue on this narrow road together. We're suppose to move into our new place today and we are so thankful for the body of Christ coming along side of us to pray for us and serve us. Praise the Lord! God is indeed faithful!

Surprise Baby Shower!

I am beyond thankful! The idea of having a baby shower when Ty and I live in a small little room in a basement that can't even hold all our things was an impossibility. I threw that idea out the window and just continued to pray that the Lord would bless us with the things we need for baby's arrival. Without a shower, the Lord had already provided bags of clothes for baby's first year, along with a brand new crib, walker and other important items. 

God not only answered my prayers but made the impossible possible. I had a baby shower!!! There was so much food and the decorations were beautiful! Not to mention people I've been wanting to see for months! What a mighty God we serve! We were also showered with love and more gifts for baby and we are eagerly waiting his arrival. We are so thankful for our brothers and sisters who labored. 

In my husband's Words:

"I'm so thankful to the Lord that I can experience church, and even watch God take care of His children through the church. Where my wife and I have lost a mother we have gained mothers in the church, where my wife and I have lost brothers, we have gained brothers in the church, where we have lost fathers, we have gained fathers in the church, uncles, aunts, sisters. What we have lost in pursuing Christ with total abandon we have gained 10fold. Our Heavenly Father has provided for His children, and He continues to provide. And still, never have I seen the righteous forsaken...or his children begging for bread. May the Lord use us in the same way for others."

This Momentary Marriage By John Piper

This Momentary Marriage

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 I just had to share their testimony with you guys. Our God is so amazing. I am so excited to read through this book with my husband and Lord willing a couple of friends.

 

 

Redemption (Testimony)

I grew up in a Roman Catholic home where I learned the importance of penance and purity. If you grew up in a Roman Catholic home you know the importance of remaining a virgin until marriage. It was lifted up very highly. As a child I was exposed to many sexual activities but I always told myself I would save myself for my husband. I looked down on girls who engaged in sexual intimacy with their boyfriends. I even stopped talking to one of my best friends in high school because she lost her virginity and we were both Catholics. It's really silly because before then we were both doing ungodly things to indulge in our sinful sexual desires and since we weren't going around having sex we felt we were more righteous than others. I had so much pride in my virginity. It was my glory, my everything, my worth was in my virginity. It was the only thing I had that was my own. God's Standards are way higher than that though. Matthew 5:8 says "But I tell you that anyone who looks at a woman lustfully has already committed adultery with her in his heart." I was not pure, I was already stained yet I persecuted others.

Finally in 2007, a man who ministers to the youth saw my myspace and was concerned for it was designed with death everywhere. We got in contact and he would allow me to attack his faith as he pointed out different things wrong with the Roman Catholic Religion. Eventually after months of wrestling and attacking his faith, I was hit with the reality that Jesus Christ died on the cross for my sins. Although I had heard this all my life, I never understood it to that extent. That very night, I prayed that Christ would redeem me, forgive me of my sins and enable me to have a personal relationship with him and thus began my journey. I look at the things that have taken place since I've begun my intimate relationship with the Lord and I am humbled to the core. I am amazed at my depravity and even my amazement right now shows my lack of humility for I am thinking of myself higher than I ought.

After Salvation, things got extremely hectic at home. Not only did I lose friends but my family members were turning against me. My dad in particular was very furious about my conversion. He had always been a very violent man growing up and after my conversion, he treathned me, cursed my future offsprings and constantly called me names like lazy, prostitute and so on. While all of this was happening, I had one person to run to apart from the Lord, yep! the same man who shared with me. I would call him up and tell him everything that's going on. I knew nothing about him yet trusted him because he introduced me to the doctrine that I now hold dear. Sadly he was a pedophile who had a horrible past and I just happen to be next on the list. Blind and gullible I ran to him whenever I was fearful or in pain. Eventually I became attached to him and he continued to advance his plans. He told me his age which was 30 at the time and I 18 but I didn't care at this point. He told me that God told him that I was his wife. He talked of his ability to see angels and his desire to be with me. One more thing, He was married and his wife was pregnant but had ran away from home. He claimed that she ran away because she thought she had the promised child Arianna in her stomach. He says that God revealed to him who his wife would be and nicknamed her Sapphire, he also said that God showed him that he would have a daughter by her called Arianna. He used God's word to explain to me that our "love" was good in God's eyes and that he was no longer bound because she ran away and a wife is not to run away from her husband.

December came around and he called my cell crying on the phone about being alone and having no one. He pointed out that although my family was mistreating me they were still around but he had no one. I felt sad and wanted to prove that I cared so I planned to visit him when school began since I would be on campus and my parents would have no clue. He paid for my bus fare and I headed to see him. The ride was long and I was all alone. It was pretty scary because I've never really roamed the streets alone because of my parent's strict rules but I was traveling to a different state far away to visit this "friend" of mine. I made it there the next day and there he stood smiling and expecting me. I remember him saying "Wow I can't believe you actually came" Making me feel special for doing such a wonderful thing for him. He had a small apartment. I came in the house and he had prepared a love hunt for me. I would go around the house and find different things that he prepared and left behind to display his love. Things like notes, chocolate and etc... I was pretty flattered. Having been on the bus for hours I went to the bathroom, took a shower and as I always did in the past, made sure I looked beautiful so that he would desire me when I came out. In my youthful years, I loved drawing men with my frame and beauty. If men didn't give me attention I felt worthless. I loved their worship but never gave them the desires of their hearts which on my occasions was sex. I didn't want the worship to stop. I came out and praises flowed from his lips and there it was, we kissed. As I noticed his passion, I made it clear to him that I wanted to wait until marriage to lose my virginity. He agreed and continued, praised me, told me how beautiful I was and desiring more of his touch I compromised. I told him we can do other things but not sex. He was happy and continued, I justified myself saying "oh I'm not having sex, so this is ok" Before you know it he was getting a little more aggressive and reminded him to keep his promise but he didn't. I started crying because I felt like my treasure, my self-worth was stolen from me. He then seeing my tears tried to persuade me that I was still a virgin and that he didn't go all the way whatever that may mean but I knew that what was done was done. I went to the bathroom, he followed me and said that it was because he loved me so much that he did it. He said I was so beautiful and his passion for me were too strong and that he could not practice self control. Hearing his plea, I took responsibility for everything that happened and forgave him because I knew I wasn't dressed appropriately, I compromised and allowed him to get to close so yes it is my fault.  

I left and again things got extremely hectic at home and since we remained friends and would talk every night. I told him everything that took place and he concluded that I wasn't safe there. He said that if I remained there, I would fall away from the faith. He promised to protect me, take me to church and much more. And what do you think I did? Yep! I packed my bags, dropped out of school and left for good, leaving a letter for my family. I fled to a totally different state, moved in with him and would not talk to anyone. When I got there some rules were laid down. He started to really show himself. He was a very jealous man. He sometimes would drink and tell me to drink with him. I was not allowed to go outside and I had to give him a report of all I did all day and whom I talked to throughout the day on the phone. I freely gave myself to him by this time and at times I would hide my pain so that he would be happy because if I complained he would compare me with his ex-wife and say "oh you're acting just like her, she always complained etc..." I wanted him to be pleased and I didn't want to be like everyone before me. Time went by and he kept none of his promises. He never took me to church and sometimes would go out and leave me in the house alone. He even went on shows for a day or two and then come back. I thought he had my best interest at heart but his jealous and controlling ways were a bit too much to handle.

I served him to the best of my abilities until one day broken in prayer I asked God what His will was for me. Through my daily bible studies, I fell upon 1 Thessalonians 4:3-8 “For this is the will of God, your sanctification: that you should abstain from sexual immorality; that each of you should know how to possess his own vessel in sanctification and honor, not in passion of lust, like the Gentiles who do not know God; that no one should take advantage of and defraud his brother in this matter, because the Lord is the avenger of all such, as we also forewarned you and testified. For God did not call us to uncleanness, but in holiness. Therefore he who rejects this does not reject man, but God, who has also given us His Holy Spirit.” I was so thankful and surprised that this was even in the bible! I knew I had to leave but how?

Though I was fearful that my family would reject me and even though this would make him upset, the Lord enabled me to speak to him and share what I felt the Lord was telling me in His word. I told him that I felt the Lord was telling me to go back to my parents's house and to my surprise he accepted! Even though I had already read the verse and I knew God's will I still desired sexual intimacy and we did so until I left still believing that I was the promised Sapphire that the Lord had promised him. When I got home, he was still very controlling and harrassed me from afar. I expressed to him my desire to go to church and he suggested I take a look at a movement called Calvary chapel lead by Chuck Smith. Still foolishly trusting him, I went to visit this church and pretty much continued to fellowship there. A couple months went by and I couldn't handle his jealous spirit anymore, I grabbed some of my older sisters in the faith who were in leadership and confessed everything to them. I was in a mess, he wouldn't stop controlling me and I wanted to fellowship with Christ but I felt like he was in the way. I struggled with idolatry and when I didn't place him above God he didn't like that very much. In tears, I asked them to help me because I wanted to be free. I wanted to be able to worship the Lord without someone else in between making me feel like I’m incapable of hearing from the Lord. They made my pastor aware and there began another long journey where the guy was pretty much stalking and harassing me. I later changed my number and closed some of my email accounts. Now to point back to a truth that the Lord allowed me to remember. In high school, one of my classsmates ran away with a man she met online and I remember being confused and looking down on her thinking first of all he is old eww and you don't even know him that's stupid! and yet that was my life. 

As I grew in the Lord and made soem friends in the body, I began to discover who he really was and the Godly perspective on what had taken place. I had always taken responsibility for everything that had happened and lived in condemnation thinking "I seduced him, he was to weak, he was a victim, he didn't mean to do it. It's my fault." oh and the guilt that came from actually enjoying that which was forbidden was sometimes hard to swallow. I learned that I was not the first victim and I cannot take responsibility for Everything that happened.

Years later, I met my future husband and best friend Tyrell L. Samuels and the Lord really used him to bring some things to the surface that I may truly begin to heal from what had happened. I learned that yes, I sinned against the Lord but there is really no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus and that the man that had brought me to the faith was responsible for his own sins and it was not for me to carry that on my back. He was older in the faith, he ministers to the youth, he knew better and yet he invited me to his home and violated me. The reality that I wasn't the first victim really helped me understand in see things for what they truly are. After realizing all of this in 2011, I had a desire to warn others because I know the truth and yet I remained silent for so long because my church had advised me to close the book and just get rid of everything he ever gave me.

By God's grace last month the Lord allowed us to find a 19 year old beautiful young lady who was in a relationship with him. How? It's amazing how the Lord made it happen. We were able to discern from his interactions with her on twitter that something was up and seeing that she was young we just felt in our heart that she was a target. My wonderful best friend and future husband got in contact with the man to ask him a couple questions and offer him a chance to repent but he instead block Tyrell to avoid exposure. We were left with only one thing to do. Trusting the Lord we found the girl on facebook and asked her if she was willing to talk. We set a meeting on skype and there the Lord allowed us to minister to her and warn her about the danger she was in. Through talking to her we found out that she lives all the way in Australia, used about $3,000 to go visit him and had already engaged in sexual intimacy with him. They were also getting ready to be married and a lot of her things are actually in the US with him. He used the same tactics to draw her from God told me you're my wife to the promised child Arianna. It was heart-breaking hearing her in tears but we could do nothing but praise God that we could even talk to her! The man whom I was involved with found out and was extremely upset that we got in contact with her but by God's grace she continued to contact us and update us on their relationship. Through much prayer, the Lord gave her the boldness and courage she needed to break up with him.

I am so thankful to the Lord for what He has done. Do continue to pray for her, she's a young believer and most of her stuff are still in the US. About the guy, he is a Christian Rapper and ministers to the youth. He has managed to hide his true identity until this day and most people don't know that leads a double life and that he continues to enter in these ungodly relationships with younger girls and engages in sexual sin with them. I am so glad that the Lord saw it fit to save me and I pray for more opportunities to warn whomever may come after my sister in Australia. I pray that he would repent and turn from his way and if he doesn't that the Lord would expose him for God's name sake.

So Fam what must we gain from all of this? God is holy, we are totally depraved and must always consider ourselves lest we fall. We ought not to think of ourselves higher than we ought. Do not be deceived by looking on the outward appearance of things, examine all things in light of Scripture! And Remember Jesus Saves! He works in us both to will and to do for His good pleasure. He still does miracles today, He is still healing today! He enabled me to repent and turn form my sins and protected me from harm. Looking at where I was and how He has moved, I can't help but give Him all the Praise and glory He so deserves! God is extremly good and Gracious. Blessed be the name of the Lord!

Matthew 7:15

Watch out for false prophets. They come to you in sheep's clothing, but inwardly they are ferocious wolves.

2 Timothy 3:1-9

You should know this, Timothy, that in the last days there will be very difficult times. For people will love only themselves and their money. They will be boastful and proud, scoffing at God, disobedient to their parents, and ungrateful. They will consider nothing sacred.They will be unloving and unforgiving; they will slander others and have no self-control. They will be cruel and hate what is good. They will betray their friends, be reckless, be puffed up with pride, and love pleasure rather than God. They will act religious, but they will reject the power that could make them godly. Stay away from people like that! They are the kind who work their way into people’s homes and win the confidence ofa vulnerable women who are burdened with the guilt of sin and controlled by various desires. (Such women are forever following new teachings, but they are never able to understand the truth.) These teachers oppose the truth just as Jannes and Jambres opposed Moses. They have depraved minds and a counterfeit faith. But they won’t get away with this for long. Someday everyone will recognize what fools they are, just as with Jannes and Jambres

About Me

Hello Everyone,


I never thought I would start a blog page but I did =) The truth of the Gospel of Jesus Christ hit me in 2007 and my life has never been the same. When introducing the Gospel, people tend to talk a lot about blessings and we rarely hear about the pain that many endure on a daily basis. We are living in the last days and there are many suffering for their faith. 


I grew up as a Roman Catholic. I was baptized as a baby, had my first communion and Confirmation but never regarded Christ as Lord. I deceived myself into thinking I was a Christian when in reality I didn't live to do the will of my Father in heaven. I lived to accomplish my own will. In the Catholic faith purity is stressed so I, like many others did about everything else but have sexual intercourse and walked proudly boasting that I was still a virgin. I was prideful, suicidal and filled with hatred towards humanity. 


One more thing you might want to know about me is that I was born in Haiti in 1989. Growing up there, I was exposed to a lot of sexual perversions, violence and demonic activities. I enjoyed my childhood in that I had fun but my life was designed very carefully by my parents in a way to protect me from harm. The people I associated with were on the same social class as I. They were either related to me or the children of my parents's friends. I never really had the opportunity to make any decision on my own. My parents kept me occupied with dance lessons, school, Cheerleading, modeling, piano lessons and more so that I would not be exposed to much. 


Growing up, my parents used a lot of fear to force me into "willingly" doing their will. Every time I made a decision on my own, they would plant fears in me, tell me it's not good enough or give me the silent treatment. From Childhood, my family members were my Gods, I loved them, wanted to please them, I didn't know how much this idolatry would later be the very thing that's killing me. They were in control of everything, they were the filter of my life without their approval nothing can be done. I was never allowed to have a sleepover and never was I allowed to sleep over any one else's house. There were many rules to follow and I did everything in my power to keep them.


In 2007 someone shared the Gospel with me and after months of dissecting the word with me, I understood the truth of the Gospel was broken and begged the Lord to forgive me of my sins, redeem me and take me under His wing. For those of you who have experienced the transforming power of the gospel, I changed in the way I responded to things, my desires were different and that made things at home worse. My father begin to plant fear in me by calling me many vile names and threatening to harm me by taking my life. My mother was also angry with me for she is the most devout Catholic in the house and my brother utterly frustrated because his little sister wasn't "his" anymore. I also lost touch with many of my friends due to my new found faith and all. This was very hard for me since I spent my life living to please them, it hurt to know that they were displeased with me but I had to put Christ first. 


By 2008 Things were getting so out of control at home that I ended up running away. I had to hide to read my bible, eat in secret because I did not want my father to see me because if he did, he would either get violent or start scaring me with his words or looks. While being away, I met another believer, I was thankful to the Lord. I thought that I would get to go to church, meet other "real Christians" and learn more about Christ but ended up getting raped and my heart condemns me until this day because the reason this happened to me was partially my fault. I knew it was wrong yet my flesh didn't care anymore. I felt like it was done, I was now trash, wasted goods and that my future husband would never want me. Although I knew it was wrong, I dived into sexual sin and continued to partake in that which I knew was wrong.  The realization that it was after knowing Christ that I partook in such a thing choked me. I lived in condemnation and my condemnation sometimes led to more sin because I felt like nothing else mattered, I had already messed up.


After about 2 months, while in prayer, I asked the Lord to show me/tell me His will for me. I wondered if He still loved me, wanted to lead me and I came across 1 Thessalonians 4:3  "For this is the will of God, your sanctification: that you should abstain from sexual immorality" I was shocked that this verse even existed in the bible. I knew the Lord wanted me to move out of where I was and go back home. Overwhelmed at the reality of His presence I left and fearfully went back home to my parents. The house was calm for a couple of days but eventually they saw that I still had not returned to the Catholic faith and the war started all over again. I am still here after 3 years enduring and holding on. My brother tired of my father's harsh ways moved out and now it is just my father, mother and I. 


Looking in one may wonder, where is God? Why isn't He protecting you or helping you? Although His hand may be hard to see, He is here. I'm still learning His word and sharing all that I've learned with others via Youtube, Facebook and more. The Lord is continuing to comfort me and give me strength to endure. I've also entered a new season and I cannot wait to update all of you on the big news!!! Since this is my first blog, I wanted to share a bit of my testimony  with you all so you know a little about my background and what the Lord has done for me. Continue to put your trust in the Lord.


God Bless!