Why do I wear make-up?
what's my motivation?
What is God's Will for me in this area?
This weekend has been one of the toughest for me spiritually but praise God almighty for pursuing me and revealing to me that which lurks in my own heart.
Confession:
My dear sisters, I wear make-up because I want to be noticed as a beautiful prize to be obtained. I want the admiration of others. I want my husband to be complimented when others notice my beauty and I want my husband to walk about proudly knowing that he has a beautiful wife by his side.
Sad... I know but true.
The idea of going to a huge event and not wearing any make-up to enhance or draw attention to my "unique" features as I've been told in the past, makes me want to just stay home and not fellowship with others. I don't want to go anywhere unless I feel as beautiful as the other women in the room. If I went, I would feel embarrassed and would hardly be able to hold up conversation or hold my head up because I would feel so disqualified and undone.
As a Christian woman and soon to be mother, I know I am to be set apart for the Glory of God. Which is why I'm guessing the Lord is pruning me in such a manner. What do I believe? What is of more value to me? Is it "beauty"(which isn't beauty at all) or Character? And if character is True Beauty and I know that to be true, why do I still chase after that which is perishable and deceitful? May the Lord continue His mighty work in my sinful flesh and enable me to renew my mind and submit to His Word and live by it.
A Truly beautiful wife is NOT one who outwardly looks desirable but one of a godly Character, who honors her husband and does not draw attention to herself to be praised by others.
Knowing where my heart is. It is absolutely sinful for me to wear make-up. I feel like I am being called to a life of simplicity for the glory of God and I must submit. This is my sanctification. Being a girl who has always obsessed over her appearance and has been a performer since the age of 3 or 4 dancing, cheerleading and modeling this is very challenging. I know that my motivation for wearing make-up is sinful but I understand God's will and believe that this is necessary for my sanctification. Praise the Lord for humbling, pruning and revealing these things. If in reading you too realize that this is an area where you are struggling, I encourage you to join me in total surrender lifting up holy hands thanking the Lord for lovingly pointing these truths out to us. Let us prize that which He prizes, living in light of eternity. May He have His way!
Being confident of this very thing, that He
which hath begun a good work in you will perform it
until the day of Jesus Christ
Philippians 1:6
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